ive been called out

[saint_duke]

 

(the man who barfs turned out to be spock and ive never been so enthralled by a character before as i am now LOL)

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i used to have an oc (well, still do, i just dont rp or do anything with him anymore like i used to. actually, i used to rp him with this friend even, so she knows damn well what shes talking about), and looking back on him, he met all of those criteria before i even realized that that was my TYPE:
-repressed sexuality
-self-loathing/shame over natural sexual responses
-hates own boner when gets one

i have no idea what this says about me LOL but its definitely me projecting something; luckily for me, my boyf is a very confident man who loves his boners and sexuality-
and me 
(ha, gaaaaaaaaay)

we just arent quite gay enough to engage in valentines day hahah

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i kinda like journaling on dreamwidth like this, it keeps my thoughts well! somehow it seems super impersonal, and i like that. if its one thing i hate, its having feelings. the second thing i hate? expressing said feelings and then having someone acknowledge those feelings. probably why i hated therapy so much kekw